SO, this is a fun day to remember!!
Two years ago, today, scared and most significantly unsure, I launched my blog, You Are On Time.
Back then, I was owned by Word Press, and it had this creepy little eyeball underneath each entry that calculated the number of people who read each post. Because of that, I had set this goal: If my words reached 3,000 people, I was gonna build my own website.
Well, a year later, I reached my goal.
Except, I didn’t create my own website. Instead, I allowed doubt and more fear to creep in. What if I don’t have what it takes? What if the words don’t come? What if people don’t like what I have to say?
Ever been here?
For two months, I went back and forth. I questioned my ability. I questioned the timing. I compared myself to other writers like Lysa Terkeurst and Jennie Allen. I felt like they were doing the same thing I was doing on a much grander scale, reaching far more people than I ever was and so I thought, what exactly WAS I thinking?
In between all those negative thoughts, I continued coming up with quotes for my Facebook Page, @You Are On Time, and then one day, before I published a quote, I was hit by the Spirit.
Out of 7 billion people in the world, speaking thousands of different languages, having millions of ideas, I have never Googled my quotes to see if they’ve already been said. Out of 7 billion people, please hear me, God had given me my own unheard and unique voice.
So, instead of doubt, I declared, what if I DO have what it takes? What if the words DO come? What if people LOVE what I have to say? I might not be reaching millions, but what if I’m only supposed to reach a few? What if, what if, what if, I DON’T do this?
So you see, my fear turned into confidence and my uncertainty turned into surety. Most importantly, my retracted mind turned into a renewed one (Romans 12:2).
I spent hours watching videos on how to create a website from scratch. Piece by failing piece, I struggled my way onto a plot of land that I now call my own, in a world that is not my own.
And it feels so good.
But here’s the TRUTH:
Two years ago, it really wasn’t me who created my blog. It really wasn’t me who reached 3, 000 people prior to that. It really wasn’t me who created a Facebook Page, with over 365 quotes.
I’ll tell you exactly who it was.
It was the Jesus in me.
The Jesus in me, who took my fragile heart and mended it. The Jesus in me, who took my empty hands and filled them. The Jesus in me, who took MY ending and established a new beginning. The Jesus in me, who, two years later, is still, *tears running down my face* fulfilling His plans for my life.
None of this has happened because of what I’ve done, but only because of what Jesus has done.
And, you know what I believe?
I believe, if you allow Him, He will do the same for you.
I believe out of 7 billion people there is a Jesus savin’ a seat for your talent.
If you’re here today, havin’ a hard time believin’ that, do what I did: renew your mind. Use your HARD life for His glory. Friends, may I never forget that it was because of my HARD life, I am able to speak today.
“Jesus, unveil their eyes. If it’s the death of a loved one, use his story. If it was a miscarriage, use her story. If it is perfectionism, jealousy, anger, use their story. If it’s greed, alcohol, pornography, use their story. If it’s an abusive marriage, unveil my eyes, God, and USE MY STORY.
You call us worthy, you call us beloved, you call us friend.
Cause our hearts to overrule our minds and believe that out of 7 billion people who look a lot like we do, that YOU can still…use us.
And Jesus, if there are people reading this today, who may have not experienced HARD life, we ask that you continue to protect them, and let them know that we need them just as much as they need us. Give them unveiled eyes to see a hurting world, including the individuals leading an atmosphere contained by four walls.
For 11 years, I prayed for peace. I prayed for answers. I prayed for a solution to a life I never wanted to be a part of. I pleaded for freedom, God. In your grace and in your mercy, you pardoned me, and so it has become my greatest joy to praise you for those 11 HARD years. I give you all the glory. Thank you for the words you have given to me, and may I preserve them in a way that pleases you. Amen.”
Friends, your HARD life is still worth living because there are still souls that are dying.
It is YOUR story that will save their life.
Above all, through all, in all, give God the glory.
You have absolutely NO IDEA the extravagant power that comes from a Jesus who restores.
Oh, sweet friend, until He releases that power on you.
Love you all. Appreciate you all. THANK YOU ALL for two of the best, most fulfilling years of my life.
Let’s keep movin’ forward, shall we?
Are you comin’?!