Nine years ago, on July 30th, my world changed.
I became a mama for the first time.
Every birthday, I made a cake for my son and decorated it the best way I knew how.
Here’s a picture of his first one:
Because I am pretty terrible at keeping track of photos, I’ll just mention that the following years, I created: Lightning McQueen, a green T-rex, the red Power Ranger, and Sonic the Hedgehog.
And then I stopped.
Because four months prior to my son’s 6th birthday, I made the brave and scary decision to leave his dad.
And something about consciously choosing to separate my family for the sake of saving me, finding a job, taking care of 2 babes alone, packing, cleaning, moving and clawing my way onto uncharted territory, kind of put a halt in fast forward time.
In other words, I just couldn’t do it.
Ever been here?
In a matter of minutes, my HARD life became a new and different kind of HARD.
I mean, my son still had a birthday cake, but it was store bought.
And I still remember how I felt about that.
The only way for me to explain it is this:
It won’t always be this way, son.
And today, I just kinda wonder if you’re sayin’ the same thing.
Or maybe, you’re doubting the bright side, asking, will it always be this way?
In one thought, we’re hopin’ for change.
In another thought, we’re questioning it.
Friends, *sighs* I’m about to say some HARD truth.
While I wish I could, I can’t promise that the diagnosis will change. I can’t promise that loved ones will make it through the night. Sometimes, circumstances like this are out of our control. It is always our best and most honorable act to give circumstances like this to a Jesus who is in control.
So, if the above paragraph has you in this place today, I am praying for your willingness to still believe in a good God. A God, whose Son is comin’ to take us out of this death and disease-infested place. A God, who promises hope for believers, No, it won’t always be this way, son.
Maybe these examples aren’t your circumstances. Maybe you’re goin’ through something right now that has you sort of in control. Like, maybe you’re wondering if you’ll always be overweight. Or, if you’ll always be broke. Or, if you’ll always be addicted. Or, if you’ll always be in a bad relationship. Or, if you’ll always be ______________________.
If you’re questioning if things will always be this way…renew your mind, stop wondering and start declaring, it won’t always be this way, son. Go to the gym. Find a better paying job. Get Jesus help. Leave him. ___________________________.
Maybe you’re just in a rut. Ugh. I hate clichés. Please make that phrase as real in your life as you possibly can. Whichever way you are stuck, please pinpoint it and tell someone.
Maybe the thoughts inside your mind are preventing you from believing the Truth inside your heart. Maybe the devil is attacking you from every angle, like he ferociously attempted to do with me last week. Maybe his lies and put downs are exactly the challenge we need to dig into God’s Word and replace doubt with hope, confusion with clarity, Satan with Jesus.
I’m not sayin’ that HARD life will get any easier. I won’t ever promise that. What I am saying is, HARD life begins to make sense. And it becomes DOABLE. Why? Because we have a Jesus who is with us in this HARD life. He has this amazing, takes-my-breath-away, ability to help us overcome the space in time in which, nothing ever goes right.
Friends, RUN to Him. Do not give in.
By His GRACE, He will allow us to endure and experience simple, yet extravagantly significant glimpses of ABUNDANCE. And joy. And laughter. And friendships. And, suddenly, minute by precious minute, time begins again.
And a family is gathered.
And Mamas find a good-paying job.
And shelter is provided.
And children are off to new schools.
And three years later, birthdays for nine-year-old boys, righteously resume.
Sons and Daughters of the Most High God: Rejoice! It won’t always be this way. Oh, what a Savior.
“Every valley shall be exalted, and every mountain and hill shall be made low: and the crooked shall be made straight, and the rough places plain: And the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together: for the mouth of the Lord hath spoken it.” Isaiah 40:4-5, KJV.
“That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.” Romans 10:9-10, KJV.